Backstreet & Cruising!!

I honestly don't know how many days are left until we are on the boat with Backstreet Boys but I also will be leaving on the 22nd of Oct and spending couple of extra days in Miami which I'm so excited about! :) Today I finally got the things I needed for theme night I had to do cheap as possible due to lack of money ha-ha. Halloween night I brought a costume that cost me 20.00 but I had to go to BFE to get it at the Wal-Mart they shipped it too, I'll probability wear my flats that I have to wear with it or it'll just be black flip flops I refuse to wear heels :) Glow/Neon theme night I have my bright pink shorts, I have my white tank top but has writing and hearts with bright colors (so awesome and my favorite) so that will be perfect with it :D I also got some glow-sticks, my roommate and I might get some paint or something but not 100% sure yet. I honestly wasn't too thrilled for BACHELORETTE party night but I honestly am glad its happening because I went all out for this one but cheap as well. I got my necklace that I had gotten in New Orleans that is with penises and inside is white gooey stuff and I hope you know what is meant for, and you can squeeze it and it comes out LOL!! I love it some people find it disgusting but it's all for fun and humor, so it doesn't bother me. I also brought a stash and a tiara that lights up with penises! LOL I can't wait it's gonna be so awesome yes I'm very excited!! Now I just need to get my one way home flight back to Denver otherwise I'll just be living on the Miami beach LOL I wouldn't mind but I'm sure my parents would be pretty pissed off if I didn't come home. I also need to save up some spending money (won't be much but little) and of course the door decorations, I'm gonna try and start on that tomorrow or Saturday. :) All I can is I cannot believe it's next month I remember when it used to be like 9 months to go! LOL

My view on Long Beach

When you look at the photo above, what's the first thing that comes to your mind? This might sound weird or different but for me peaceful comes to mine. Walked the entire beach and all I kept saying was this is so peaceful no wonder people say they love coming to the beach to clear their head and if I lived by one I would be saying the same thing!

All I wanted to do was just watch the waves and believe me if it could happened I would still be there watching the waves no joke, I didn't want to leave the beach, when I left the beach to head back for the last night I was in Long Beach I was devastated, I also remember just looking back on the photos and video I took and just kept thinking if only......

I find the ocean between your toes and on your feet is the best feeling in the world, it's something that I would think about daily, but not only it's the feeling I miss in the world right now, while I'm stuck in Colorado. Don't get me wrong Colorado is a beautiful state but living here all my life I'm bored of the mountain life and I know that beach life is more of who I am.

Next obsession I have next to the beach that will be palm tree's I can't get over them and I so wish I could have at least one palm tree in my backyard, you're probability thinking I'm crazy or something but I find palm tree's to be relaxing.

This is most likely one of the best photos I ever taken of myself at a beach, I don't care how bad I look or how fat and disgusting I look from anyone else's view but to me this is just amazing, the sun setting behind, shining off the beach, all I could say to myself was "someday, I will be living here" that someday might not be anytime soon but hopefully it's in my future.

I often sit back and just think about the days I could be going to have some fun on the shore, enjoying some nice diner by the water and enjoying a light cool breeze but hearing the waves crashes in the background. This was one of the best photo's I taken after the sun has set in for the evening.

In A World Like This, I've got BSB!

First off I just want to say that going to California to see BSB was probability the best decision ever because my friend Katie and I got to make it a mini vacation which was awesome, we went to Hollywood Blvd and saw the BSB star, went to the beach and of course went saw and met the Backstreet Boys.

Shall we just fast forward to the boys? I think so. I gotten a email to arrive at 3:15 for check in and we actually arrived a little earlier than that and upon walking towards the meeting place there was people all over the place and I thought yep this is very unorganized they had Jesse VIP there as well and we were all mixed up and we finally checked in and got our passes after waiting 3 hours it seems and the hot sun doesn’t help but the venue was nice to give us bottles of water while we waited and I met Hilda *waves* once we gotten inside the venue we were all separated by the package we have gotten and Gold was the longest since it was sold out but while waiting what seemed to be forever (Backstreet Time right) I met Vanessa and Steffy, and met some other cool fans, I also saw Kristin and I went over and told her that I just wanted to say congratulations and she said thank you and said she would love to stay and chat but she was needing to go get friend’s and family. At the last minute we was told that anyone that has VIP and wristband for the GA/Fan pit we needed to get into another line and we was taken first to start the walk to sound-check and it was bit of a walk ha-ha. Once we arrived Justin took us to our seats

and it was off to the side a bit so we had a okay view during sound-check when they sang the songs but when answering questions they went to the front which made us see their backs mostly and I had a hard time understand what was being said since I couldn’t read their lips at all :\ but I do remember that Nick said he will be married next year and Nick was like I’m sorry, not sure why though he has nothing to be sorry about. When AJ came out I told him hello and he said hi to me, came over and talked to me for a little bit but I had a hard time understanding with his beard but I think it was awesome that he did that, he asked how I was and I asked him how he was he said tired and said more but that part I didn’t catch. Mason was near us during it and he was just being the cutest boy ever, singing along, and making funny faces and once he saw us taking photos or something he would stop get shy and yet serious like his father, it was too cute. After Sound-check was over Leighanne came out with Baylee and I told Leighanne hello and she said hi to back with a wave/smile but she seemed busy trying to talk to someone about something so I let her be. We were first to go get ready for photos and we were taken backstage near the busses, and saw what actually happens back there. I saw Leighanne as we walking and she saw me and said hello again and gave me a hug, I said hello to Baylee and then I asked Baylee if he was performing tonight he said yes. We were first in line to meet the boys but that changed at last minute because the Platinum was going first and before I knew it we were next as I was waiting Leighanne walked by and said something about being sexy or something ha-ha to me since it was almost my turn, I just waited for my turn and before I blinked it was time so I started walking up there (hoping I look decent and wouldn’t trip) ha-ha Nick saw me and said “heyyyyyy” and smiled like he was happy to see me there. I shook their hands and said hello to each one of them one by one (sucks no hugs it sucked) AJ said something to me and I couldn’t understand him, Kevin looked into my eyes and said hello and all serious like, Nick said hello and was all smiles and last but not least I got to Brian he gave me the look that is normal between us and I gave him one back of course and next thing I know I turned to look at Nick and he telling me where to stand I of course had no second guess are you kidding me, he knows me too well ha-ha so I was in between Nick and Kevin and all I remember is holding onto Nick’s waist tightly which probability made him uncomfortable but truth to be told I was just nervous as hell and not sure why I guess I had my own titanic moment to never let go? Ha-ha!

Anyways I was sort of bummed because I had things to say to Nick and I didn’t get a chance but out of no where I just asked him for a hug and he hugged me and said something but I of course didn’t catch it and as I leaving I turned to Brian and was like “long time no see stranger” and he said something else too but I didn’t catch what was being said but he looked at me started laughing and I just laughed along because I didn’t want to look like a idiot. As I walked to wait in the line until it was time to go get our spots Katie and I screamed and shared our experiences and next thing we were able to go get our seats and I just remember hauling ass to the pit and we grabbed our spots but we didn’t know that the spots in front of the stage was open too so before we realized it was too late so we just stayed in our spots and made it best we could but all I have to say is the guy in front of us was the most annoying guy ever I almost wanted to slap him. The concert itself was amazing, I was seriously blown away and yes I didn’t watch any videos I wanted to be surprised and I was! I thought Baylee was cute singing his couple of songs and the crowd seemed to enjoyed him he also shook my hand once. I loved watching Jesse McCartney but wish he would of came closer, DJ Pauly was okay I’m not a big fan but he did get the crowd going so that’s always a good thing. I couldn’t believe how close we were it was like we were on stage with them, we were close enough we could of slapped their asses but of course being respectful we didn’t go anywhere near their butts. We got eye contact from all of them but I noticed I got the most eye contact from Nick but we felt the unloved by Howie ha-ha! Nick actually touched our hands twice, the second time it was during All I have To Give he came to us, when Kevin held my hand it was for a few seconds and it was just too sweet, Brian came over and shook our hands, and I finally got to shake AJ’s hand at the very end of the show after Larger Than Life. I have to say it was awesome to watch Nick and his on stage energy I personally enjoyed it it felt good to see Nick up close and doing what he loves to do, being happy as well.

Pain is not fun.

You know there's different types of pain and I don't mind the pain from getting a tattoo but the pain I'm experiencing right now is just unbearable and it seems hurt every time I breathe so therefore it's hurting non stop it just started about a hour ago, I just hope it's nothing to serious. :( Having a lazy Saturday which I'm not used too but I guess I'll make it the best I can lol!