Havent blogged in awhile.

A lot has happened these past few weeks. Some is good and some is bad. I've lost a few friend's but like I stated many times I don't like lairs and I want the truth at all times no matter how much the truth may hurt, but after that whole thing went down I met someone it wasn't the best way to meet someone but he was at the party I was at and well we were connected from the start and of course we started dating and now we are together, we've been together since Oct 19th :) He's been so amazing and I honestly do wonder if I may of found a great guy, but only time will tell right but as for now he's a good guy a little different from who I usually go for and he's 13 years older than me but that doesn't bother me none. :) He ended up getting Twitter because of me and he also believes he has to compete with Nick Carter LOL! I told him he has nothing worry about but as he's on Facebook he sees it differently but of course he's not a BSB fan and far from it we both listen to different music since he's a lot older than me he listens to a lot of bands from the 60's and on but I actually like the music he listens to and he does listen to some music I have and I hope someday I can get him to listen to a BSB CD LOL!! Although he did listen to I Want It That Way at a bar and I believe I saw him say a few words of the song ;) Other than being in a relationship not a lot of things have changed just mostly I'm out in the evenings (with my boo) and weekdays I go to the gym and do whatever I need to do, esp on catching up on shows because usually he's off on weekends so it's great for us to be together while we can . I love that BSB has a Christmas song out and I do wonder if they will have more or even a album?! What do you think?! :)

Spread LOVE not HATE!

I'm not sure who watches X-Factor but if you do, you will know about Jillian Jensen I can relate to her a lot and I love how much effort she has and how much love she has to give others even though she was put down a lot in her life time but she picked herself up and stays strong and she started the whole spread love not hate and I have to agree with her! :) Bullying is not the answer, any time of bullying whatsoever, life is way too short and in some cases look how bullying has done to others and to the person themselves.. it's just not right. I'm also going to take Jillian's advice and start doing the same thing, where I have said in the past where I'm going to change and do better and I'm keeping that word and I will now and forever. Who else with me to do this? Spread love not hate. :) xoxo

Learning from our mistakes.

How many times have we heard those words in our lifetime? For myself I hear it quite often and it never gets old to hear this because it's true and it does help me remember that I'm a human and I'm not perfect so with the mistakes I make I just need to learn from them and sometimes I will even look back onto and it will help me make the right choice instead the wrong one.

Weight Loss never is easy

I've realized that weight loss is not easy if it was everyone would nailed it with no problem. I've had my up and downs a lot lately meaning I gained and lost and once again I gained a little more I shouldn't give my sickness a excuse but even though I didn't want to but after getting better I made sure I was well enough to go back to the gym and that of course lead into non stop eating and not caring although I still tracked everything I ate. I went to my meeting today and I know I can do this and I have a feeling this week will be a good week and the next few months will even be better. I just need to stay positive and that's all I can do. Two things I have a good support system and I also have a cruise to look forward too and I want to look good for that trip, I want to say yes I did it and now I feel better than ever. All I can say is if you want to lose weight and change for yourself all you need is support which is number 1 thing, and if I'm here if you need it. :)

Haven't written in awhile

I guess I've just haven't been in a writing mood lately but here I am I thought I could write a little. I'm just going to say that I loved the Ustream that Howie and Nick did. I was laughing the entire time and hearing them laugh and having a good time made me smile. :) Sadly none of my questions got answered but that doesn't matter, I still had a great time! I couldn't think of the best questions or anything like that but it's all good. I'll still be on that boat and have time of my life. Speaking of the cruise I can't believe in 3 days it'll be booking time I'm so nervous and yet excited! I will be booking for my roommate and I. :) I'm also excited for my roommate we seem to get along great and I think we are both going to have a amazing time! My roommate (amanda) and I came up with our door decorations and since we won't be together to make them we are going for 2 different things but it will be the same thing basically, I'm just not sure how to start on mine and such. I'm not creative I will admit that but over all I will be happy with what I come up with. :)

Weather changing

I don't like how the weather is changing because I love the hot weather and being able to wear shorts and flip flops all day long. Here it's soon to be fall and the weather is already fitting, it's very chilly in the morning and early to late evening's which means hoodie time is back. Now don't get me wrong I do think Fall is a beautiful season with the leaves changing and all but that just means that soon will be Winter and I'm not looking forward to the snow and cold weather all day/night. I also see that the sun is what gives me a boost to my day, when the sun is out I'm happy and up going, when we have those shady grey cloudy days I'm a lot more moody and totally like whatever and want to be lazy all day long. This is what going to worry me about when it comes to the early morning of going to the gym.. I hope I can stick it out I know last year I used the winter and cold as a excuse I cannot do that again.

New York City!

I honestly can say that I miss NYC! I'm not sure what it's about of why I miss it but I'm thinking it has to be the city and the entertainment as well. Time Square I miss the most! I didn't get to do a whole lot of sightseeing but I'm glad I got to see Times Square once more. I went to the usual places and took photo's I wanted to walk more but my legs were very tired and I also wanted to make sure I got to the 9-11 memorial before it was dark since I was alone after all. M&M World.

The 2012 Ball, where they have New Years Eve every year.

Toys R Us Store.

9-11 Memorial

Looking over to the side of the new North Tower being built.

North Tower again

South Tower

Rockefeller Center

Central Park

Ripley's Believe Or Not

Took while taking off back to Denver

Backstreet Boys GMA Experience!

Here's my review and some photo's :) Enjoy!! Backstreet Takes New York & Good Morning America August 30th & 31st 2012 When I arrived in NYC on Wednesday night I will say the adventure was about to start I had to figure out how to find the bus station as well as figure how to get to my hotel from the subway. Needless to say that it wasn’t so bad I actually did pretty well for being my first timer alone, the hardest part was finding the hotel I gotten lost and wasn’t sure how to find the hotel but after a few wrong turns and all finally found it. The area was in the Bronx and wasn’t too nice but I did manage to stay alive and well through the area. The hotel was alright I mean the front desk had a glass door so that right there didn’t make me feel safe at all. The staff barely spoke English and well I’ll stop there LOL anyways ordered pizza and finally fell asleep by 3am I believe it was. Woke up at like 8am and started the day by getting some breakfast and then gotten ready we started heading to the city at 11am I was so excited to finally go into the city!

Went to see some places and then walked over to Central Park to see where GMA was for the next morning also got to go on the GMA stage and take a photo explore Central Park some more and headed to the place where the Backstreet Take New York event was taken place a “secret” location that is. When we arrived AJ was outside smoking a cigarette and eventually got his attention he waved, smiled and said that he was watching my social cam videos and I asked him thanks I was doing it just for him, what he told me next blew me away but he told me I was looking good and I told him I lost 30lbs so far and he goes “I can tell” that made me smile ear to ear and it made my entire day then we smiled once again and I let him be, I did want him to come over so I could ask him that question I had for him but he couldn’t but he said he would if he could. I didn’t get to do the VIP event after all due to some trouble, misunderstanding and whatnot but still talked to a few fans in the line and also was on camera while they were going up and down the lines for the documentary and I also showed them my tattoo and they filmed it yay!! While waiting for Q I also saw Nick inside by the door talking on the phone I just looked at him he was sort of yelling in to the phone so I left him be as well as I was crying and of course I didn’t want him to see me like I was but he did after he was done on the phone he went back and came back to use the restroom and that’s when Q told me to wait for a little bit. When Q came out to talk to me we talked for a bit and he told me to hang in there and gave me a hug which I think is very sweet and then he asked me if I would be at GMA and I should still go and so he also got some information for me for GMA so I was prepared, after the good-byes I went to the nearest bar and had some drinks and shots which made me feel a whole lot better and the people there was so nice they gave me my shot, a beer and food for free due to my sadness when I had arrived. After the event was over I headed back to the place and waited with all the other fans waiting to see the guys leave. Nick was the first one to come out and I yelled Nick, Nick and he goes “What, What” and looks at me and goes “hey!!” and smiled and went into the van, AJ came out and smiled, Brian came out he smiled and waved back to me, Howie didn’t hear me (He needs to borrow my hearing aids… ha-ha just kidding), Kevin and Kristin was the last ones into the van and Kevin smiled and waved at me and I got Kristin’s attention and asked her if she remembered me and she said yes, I was like mentioning to well trying to tell her that Mason is adorable and they went into the van and they all left. After a hell of a night trying to get back to the hotel which wasn’t needed should of just straight to Central Park and waited in line but I didn’t try to go to sleep I just took a long hot shower and slowly got ready and hit the road at 3:30am we took the Subway to Central Park we arrived about 5am and there was already a long line and yet it was also confusing I wasn’t sure where to stand or what so we waited in the VIP line eventually when the lines were moving some guy was telling whoever had Premium seats to just go up the line so I did once inside I got a spot which was right side about 2nd/3rd row which I was happy with. The waiting and standing was the hardest part I will admit that but yes it was worth it. AJ and Brian came out with bag of bagels and fed us fans, AJ actually came down and went through the entire barricade of fans and he eventually gave me one and it was chocolate chip it was good but very messy it was all over my hands lol. I also told him that I still have his bracelet and he looked at me and smiled I believe he said thank you, awesome, or something to that.

The guys came out and did sound-check which was great to see we got to get some more times with the guys and it was fun seeing them interact and such especially with Kevin being back. Nick and AJ came down during Larger Than Life and he was in front of us for sound-check which was cool and the fans went crazy we were all being pushed up. They sang Larger Than Life, I Want It That Way, Incomplete, Everybody. During the actual concert Kevin waved at me twice and at one pointing time I was doing the I love you sign and he said thank you and smiled. I actually started to cry during Incomplete and Kevin started to cry during I Want It That Way, it was a total mess but of course it was happy tears. AJ came out to get a gift from a fan near by and eventually he was going to throw his towel and he ended up throwing it to me.

This whole experience was just amazing I always wanted to do something like this and I made it happen. I may not have photo’s with Backstreet Boys or done the VIP although I do have some good memories to last a life time and that itself made my trip worth it plus I also got to see some friend’s as well. To see more photo's of mine.

Home Bound!

I've been home for couple of days and I will be honest it's been hard to get back into the routine and into the reality of life. I also got sick while I was in NYC so that also had been dragging me down all I want to do is sleep. Thursday I will be heading back to Weight Watcher's and getting back on track... esp after what happened in NYC and what AJ had told me that's def my get it together type of message. I also got two blisters from NYC so I can't really walk normal and when I do try to walk it hurts so I'm trying to stay off my feet but it's not working well either, I just hope it gets healed up soon, so I can start going back to the gym. I did upload my photos from NYC and I'm in the progress of writing my review from GMA and MixTape :) I also need to upload my photos to my photobucket account so I can share some photo's with you all. :) Brody (my nephew) started school today, he was very excited and yet I was here trying to not cry my eyes out, LOL!! He just grew up so fast, he needs to stop growing up!

100% Guilty!!

Why drag it on as him being called a suspect? He's 100% guilty and everyone knows it and seeing his face expressions on TV he has no soul whatsoever! I hope he gets what he deserves he killed 12 and injured so many more which is not acceptable. Yet we still don't know why he did this but yet I'm sure they gonna say he's insane or something which is no excuse he deserves to be in jail and rot in there or death penalty! RIP to all the victims that lost their lives and hope all the ones that got injured get well soon!

My weigh in today was a burst.

I walked in with positive attitude that if I didn't reach my 25lb goal like I hoped I would at least lose some and of course as usual before every weigh in I'm nervous and just don't want to do it but I know this is part of the process so I get on and the lady tells me I stayed the same. Now I'm happy I didn't gain but I didn't lose either so that means I hit plateau, which I don't know how to fix this I mean I did everything right, I worked out, I tracked my foods, etc and yet I still hit a plateau and since I've never gotten this far in a past weight loss I have no idea what this means or what can I do. All I know is I so badly want to quit because I'm so tired of not losing like everyone else is.

28 days to go

This is not me at all when a trip is approaching I'm usually giggly and bouncing off the walls and this is usually a month before the trip happens and here it 28 days to go and I'm not even excited so something is definitely wrong with me! I'm not sure what it is but I do believe a little part of it has to do with the past trips that involves BSB have been a little awkward and weird due to the fact of petty stuff ya know. The other thing is I'm not even sure the boys will see that I'm there because I couldn't afford the BSBBQ ticket which is a few hours with them and a meet and greet and yeah it's me when do I ever pass on about a meet and greet well I had to this time due to short notice and I have bills so I have to be a adult before I can have fun but I am hoping something great happens that will make this trip memorable because I do want to talk to Nick about my weight loss so far and make sure he's still good about the Skype chat that we promised in Feb. :) I mean I should be excited I'm seeing my boys again and I haven't seen them together since the cruise last year so I need to be hyped up. Hopefully things change when it gets closer.

Backstreet's Back????

Well this does bother me a bit because the boys never left, they still stayed as group and never did break up. Kevin did leave for awhile but yet still Backstreet Boys was there with a new album and tour. I just felt that Good Morning America once again had to say they are back so I mean us fans know what is true and what isn't and we are saying that Backstreet Boys NEVER broke up and yes they did take a break but while they were on break they even told us a album/tour will be happening wait let me correct myself, that's TWO albums and tour's they've done without Kevin being present.

Met Chapman family.

On Saturday after a long period of time of waiting and struggling with people and the heat, my cousins and I were lucky to meet Dog, Beth and their youngest daughter Cecily, although I'm a little sad due to my mom and my aunt not able to meet them, they couldn't handle the crowds and there was like 7,000 people there (no joke) and because of how rushed it was and how inconsiderate people are my cousins didn't get a photo with Dog or Beth but they had a good time meeting them both, and Cecily was very nice I think she was the nicest of them all ha-ha and my cousins joined me for a photo so I was happy they got something, and they did get Dog and Beth's autograph's and PS Dog doesn't sign front of shirts HAHA Opps!? I will say that the event itself was very unorganized,and poorly planned. I honestly think they didn't expect this many people to show up but I'm like it's free and it was all over the radio what did you not expect? We left after we met the family and headed home to get ready for the races, we just couldn't bear the heat and people, I almost had a panic attack at the beginning we were in front of the family watching them come say hi. I'm sure I'll have a more a detail review and I'll try to do it tomorrow! :)

Permanent Eye-Liner

On Tuesday I plan to go see Magic Mike if things go well that morning and early afternoon, then the late afternoon I'm going to go get my eyes done and get the permanent eyeliner on my lower eyes. Two of my aunts have it done, my mom got it done recently and a few friend's of mine have them done as well, I love this idea because A) my eyeliner always wears off after 20 minutes and have to reapply all the time B) I think it's a bitch to take off everyday LOL!! I'm hoping it goes well and I don't get freaked out but seeing how I have a lot of tattoos this should be easy. :)

I'm backkkkkkkkkk!

I've totally spaced out and forgotten about this! How weird is that?! Well it's not weird, oh well! Hopefully I can get back on track of online journal I used to have Live Journal but stopped using it since a lot of people I did talk too I don't speak with anymore or whatnot. Well right now I'm not feeling too good due to upset stomach and the heat so I'm going to get off the computer and get ready to watch America's Got Talent before bed. I have a early workout in the morning!

The New Year is here!

I woke up at 6am and I felt good! I didn't go out last night but I did fall asleep before the New Year rang (9pm) but that's okay I got things done today and I even went and did little light shopping for my scrap booking which I'm so excited to do, since I still need to finish my scrap book from 2010 as well. At first I was a little worried bout this new year but I just realized that its up to me to make the best year and I will do whatever that I feel is right or needed, I may not see BSB 23532434243 times this year but last year my year was filled with BSB, and I do get to see Nick in February it may not be 3 or 5 times but I get to see him and that's all that matter's I'm seeing one show and doing one VIP, yes I'm not picky I'm grateful but of course I also get to see my best friend, some good friend's and new friend's too! As far as plans for this year so far is just Nick Carter's show, if there's a Just Ask event I may attend but I can understand where Leighanne was saying maybe due to the things that are going on, I do hope to see Howie solo as well. I'm also going to try and enjoy this year more with friend's in my own state if that even works out the way I intend it too ha-ha! I might attend Unleashed again I had a blast last year and hopefully this time Ian will be there but we shall see, I have to choose my trips wisely this year and I also want to save up for the NEXT BSB Cruise! :) This week some of my show are back on again, yay! :) Starting tonight with Celebrity cook-off (which I wouldn't even think to watch) but Aaron Carter will be on it so how could I not?