Getting closer....

Few weeks ago up to today I honestly wasn't excited due to the fact of how I've gained weight the past few months and due to that my clothes aren't fitting me right, and you may wonder why I'm worried about that? Well it's because I've seen people make fun of me for my weight, what I wear, my hearing, what I do, how I talk, and it does get to you eventually and it tears you down. Thanks to my friend's they have improved my mood and cheered me up I'm going to go on that boat and wear what I wanna wear proudly even if it shows my big ass stomach I'm human and it happens I just can't be stressing about being made fun because it's gonna happen one way or another because there are some cruel people out in this world. I'm somewhat packed but having trouble my carry on is stuffed and I still have things to put in and it won't fit and my suitcase looks like it's gonna explode LOL I don't want to check in my luggage for two reason A) I don't want to pay for the fee's I think it's crap B) I don't want my luggage to be lost, I always worry about that. My main thing I'm worried bout is my poster that I'm needing to bring it won't fit in my suitcase and in my backpack it sticks out :\ I hope they tell me I can't bring it, I was actually just gonna have it on the side of the seat/window. Now after my little rant, everyone excited?! :) w00t w00t