28 days to go

This is not me at all when a trip is approaching I'm usually giggly and bouncing off the walls and this is usually a month before the trip happens and here it 28 days to go and I'm not even excited so something is definitely wrong with me! I'm not sure what it is but I do believe a little part of it has to do with the past trips that involves BSB have been a little awkward and weird due to the fact of petty stuff ya know. The other thing is I'm not even sure the boys will see that I'm there because I couldn't afford the BSBBQ ticket which is a few hours with them and a meet and greet and yeah it's me when do I ever pass on about a meet and greet well I had to this time due to short notice and I have bills so I have to be a adult before I can have fun but I am hoping something great happens that will make this trip memorable because I do want to talk to Nick about my weight loss so far and make sure he's still good about the Skype chat that we promised in Feb. :) I mean I should be excited I'm seeing my boys again and I haven't seen them together since the cruise last year so I need to be hyped up. Hopefully things change when it gets closer.