Well first off, I'm doing much better and thank you all for your words and encouragement! :)
I woke up a lot better this morning and I realized that the jerk didn't love me, you don't cheat on your love ones, and it being his choice it was very known of what was going on and I can say that he was a coward before, didn't change and still is a coward,and a user! I believe he was going to use me for my money because all he talked bout was paying off some of his debt so I can move down with him and whatnot, which I kept thinking it was wrong for many reason's, and I did block all contact info with him so he has no way to contact me.
I also woke up this morning and know that I should of listened to my own mother and friend's when they warned me to not go back with him and now I know for the future listen to them and not my heart, because I listened to my heart and it did wrong. I also realized that I have many things ahead of me and I should be happy and excited for so I'm not going to let some stupid jerk bring me down, I know I will get through this on my own even if I don't get to hang out with friend's because truth to be told I don't have many and I called a few yesterday to talk to and none replied and I thought that was disrespectful, because I'm always there for my friend's when they need me to be, or I def try to be there for them!
I decided that I'm going to pay off my car loan so that is out of my way and not have to worry, I still have a lot to go and I figured why not just pay it off ya know? I'm also going to pay back my parents much as I can of money that I owe them, as well my aunt. I also plan to get my car fixed, then I'm going to save some as well as treat me to some stuff as well, I'm not sure what to get but I've been wanting a Wii and I want the Wii fitness too but I'm not sure what other games I would like to get as well, but does anyone have the Biggest Loser game? I also am into Mario games as well but the fitness is what I really need so I can workout when I come home nightly from babysitting.
Hope everyone is having a good Thursday!! It's hot here, yesterday we had bad storms and tornado warnings until late at night and big size hail that did tons of damage, lucky the tornado missed my house and my area and no big damage was done, I'm really thankful, I can say this is one thing I dislike bout summer is the bad storms, :\
Today it's suppose to be really hot and with more bad storms, I sure hope it just passes us, sure the rain would be nice but it's never just rain with us sometimes, ha-ha! I wanna go tanning but I can't, it's not easy with a 20 month old hah.
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